Compassion
Pa never had much compassion for the lazy
or those who squandered their means and
then never had enough for the
necessities. But for those who were
genuinely in need, his heart was as big
as all outdoors. It was from him that I
learned the greatest joy in life comes
from giving, not from receiving.
It was Christmas Eve 1881. I was fifteen
years old and feeling like the world had
caved in on me because there just hadn't
been enough money to buy me the rifle
that I'd wanted for Christmas. We did the
chores early that night for some reason.
I just figured Pa wanted a little extra
time so we could read in the Bible.
After supper was over I took my boots off
and stretched out in front of the
fireplace and waited for Pa to get down
the old Bible. I was still feeling sorry
for myself and, to be honest, I wasn't in
much of a mood to read Scriptures. But Pa
didn't get the Bible, instead he bundled
up again and went outside. I couldn't
figure it out because we had already done
all the chores. I didn't worry about it
long though, I was too busy wallowing in
self-pity.
Soon Pa came back in. It was a cold clear
night out and there was ice in his beard.
"Come on, Matt," he said.
"Bundle up good, it's cold out
tonight." I was really upset then.
Not only wasn't I getting the rifle for
Christmas, now Pa was dragging me out in
the cold, and for no earthly reason that
I could see. We'd already done all the
chores, and I couldn't thnk of anything
else that needed doing, especially not on
a night like this.
But I knew Pa was not very patient at one
dragging one's feet when he'd told them
to do something, so I got up and put my
boots back on and got my cap, coat, and
mittens. Ma gave me a mysterious smile as
I opened the door to leave the house.
Something was up, but I didn't know what.
Outside, I became even more dismayed.
There in front of the house was the work
team, already hitched to the big sled.
Whatever it was we were going to do
wasn't going to be a short, quick, little
job. I could tell. We never hitched up
this sled unless we were going to haul a
big load.
Pa was already up on the seat, reins in
hand. I reluctantly climbed up beside
him. The cold was already biting at me. I
wasn't happy. When I was on, Pa pulled
the sled around the house and stopped in
front of the woodshed. He got off and I
followed. "I think we'll put on the
high sideboards," he said.
"Here, help me." The high
sideboards! It had been a bigger job than
I wanted to do with just the low
sideboards on, but whatever it was we
were going to do would be a lot bigger
with the high sideboards on.
After we had exchanged the sideboards, Pa
went into the woodshed and came out with
an armload of wood---the wood I'd spent
all summer hauling down from the
mountain, and then all Fall sawing into
blocks and splitting. What was he doing?
Finally I said something. "Pa,"
I asked, "what are you doing?"
You been by the Widow Jensen's
lately?" he asked. The Widow Jensen
lived about two miles down the road. Her
husband had died a year or so before and
left her with three children, the oldest
being eight. Sure, I'd been by, but so
what? "Yeah," I said,
"Why?" "I rode by just
today," Pa said. "Little Jakey
was out digging around in the woodpile
trying to find a few chips. They're out
of wood, Matt."
That was all he said and then he turned
and went back into the woodshed for
another armload of wood. I followed him.
We loaded the sled so high that I began
to wonder if the horses would be able to
pull it. Finally, Pa called a halt to our
loading, then we went to the smoke house
and Pa took down a big ham and a side of
bacon. He handed them to me and told me
to put them in the sled and wait.
When he returned he was carrying a sack
of flour over his right shoulder and a
smaller sack of something in his left
hand. "What's in the little
sack?" I asked. "Shoes. They're
out of shoes. Little Jakey just had gunny
sacks wrapped around his feet when he was
out in the woodpile this morning. I got
the children a little candy too. It just
wouldn't be Christmas without a little
candy."
We rode the two miles to Widow Jensen's
pretty much in silence. I tried to think
through what Pa was doing. We didn't have
much by worldly standards. Of course, we
did have a big woodpile, though most of
what was left now was still in the form
of logs that I would have to saw into
blocks and split before we could use it.
We also had meat and flour, so we could
spare that, but I knew we didn't have any
money, so why was Pa buying them shoes
and candy?
Really, why was he doing any of this?
Widow Jensen had closer neighbors than
us; it shouldn't have been our concern.
We came in from the blind side of the
Jensen house and unloaded the wood as
quietly as possible, then we took the
meat and flour and shoes to the door. We
knocked. The door opened a crack and a
timid voice said, "Who is it?"
"Lucas Miles, Ma'am, and my son,
Matt. Could we come in for a bit?"
Widow Jensen opened the door and let us
in. She had a blanket wrapped around her
shoulders. The children were wrapped in
another and were sitting in front of the
fireplace by a very small fire that
hardly gave off any heat at all. Widow
Jensen fumbled with a match and finally
lit the lamp. "We brought you a few
things, Ma'am," Pa said and set down
the sack of flour. I put the meat on the
table. Then Pa handed her the sack that
had the shoes in it.
She opened it hesitantly and took the
shoes out one pair at a time. There was a
pair for her and one for each of the
children---sturdy shoes, the best, shoes
that would last. I watched her carefully.
She bit her lower lip to keep it from
trembling and then tears filled her eyes
and started running down her cheeks. She
looked up at Pa like she wanted to say
something, but it wouldn't come out.
"We brought a load of wood too,
Ma'am," Pa said. He turned to me and
said, "Matt, go bring in enough to
last awhile. Let's get that fire up to
size and heat this place up." I
wasn't the same person when I went back
out to bring in the wood. I had a big
lump in my throat and as much as I hate
to admit it, there were tears in my eyes
too.
In my mind I kept seeing those three kids
huddled around the fireplace and their
mother standing there with tears running
down her cheeks with so much gratitude in
her heart that she couldn't speak. My
heart swelled within me and a joy that
I'd never known before, filled my soul. I
had given at Christmas many times before,
but never when it had made so much
difference. I could see we were literally
saving the lives of these people.
I soon had the fire blazing and
everyone's spirits soared. The kids
started giggling when Pa handed them each
a piece of candy and Widow Jensen looked
on with a smile that probably hadn't
crossed her face for a long time. She
finally turned to us. "God bless
you," she said. "I know the
Lord has sent you. The children and I
have been praying that he would send one
of his angels to spare us."
In spite of myself, the lump returned to
my throat and the tears welled up in my
eyes again. I'd never thought of Pa in
those exact terms before, but after Widow
Jensen mentioned it I could see that it
was probably true. I was sure that a
better man than Pa had never walked the
earth. I started remembering all the
times he had gone out of his way for Ma
and me, and many others. The list seemed
endless as I thought on it.
Pa insisted that everyone try on the
shoes before we left. I was amazed when
they all fit and I wondered how he had
known what sizes to get. Then I guessed
that if he was on an errand for the Lord
that the Lord would make sure he got the
right sizes.
Tears were running down Widow Jensen's
face again when we stood up to leave.Pa
took each of the kids in his big arms and
gave them a hug. They clung to him and
didn't want us to go. I could see that
they missed their Pa, and I was glad that
I still had mine.
At the door Pa turned to Widow Jensen and
said, "The Mrs. wanted me to invite
you and the children over for Christmas
dinner tomorrow. The turkey will be more
than the three of us can eat, and a man
can get cantankerous if he has to eat
turkey for too many meals. We'll be by to
get you about eleven. It'll be nice to
have some little ones around again. Matt,
here, hasn't been little for quite a
spell." I was the youngest. My two
brothers and two sisters had all married
and had moved away. Widow Jensen nodded
and said, "Thank you, Brother Miles.
I don't have to say, "'May the Lord
bless you,' I know for certain that He
will."
Out on the sled I felt a warmth that came
from deep within and I didn't even notice
the cold. When we had gone a ways, Pa
turned to me and said, "Matt, I want
you to know something. Your ma and me
have been tucking a little money away
here and there all year so we could buy
that rifle for you, but we didn't have
quite enough.
Then yesterday a man who owed me a little
money from years back came by to make
things square. Your ma and me were real
excited, thinking that now we could get
you that rifle, and I started into town
this morning to do just that. But on the
way I saw little Jakey out scratching in
the woodpile with his feet wrapped in
those gunny sacks and I knew what I had
to do. Son, I spent the money for shoes
and a little candy for those children. I
hope you understand."
I understood, and my eyes became wet with
tears again. I understood very well, and
I was so glad Pa had done it. Now the
rifle seemed very low on my list of
priorities. Pa had given me a lot more.
He had given me the look on Widow
Jensen's face and the radiant smiles of
her three children.
For the rest of my life, Whenever I saw
any of the Jensens, or split a block of
wood, I remembered, and remembering
brought back that same joy I felt riding
home beside Pa that night. Pa had given
me much more than a rifle that night, he
had given me the best Christmas of my
life.
SOMEBODY ELSE NEEDS A BLESSING Words:
Eliza E. Hewitt, circa 1917.
Were counting the
blessings, our joys we record,
The wonderful mercies like sunbeams
outpoured;
But let us remember while praising the
Lord,
Somebody else needs a blessing.
Refrain
Somebody else needs a blessing,
Somebody else needs a blessing;
Well let our lights shine to His
glory divine,
Somebody else needs a blessing.
Well go, like the Savior, to
comfort the sad;
With loves healing portion
well make others glad,
Until, with fresh verdure, lifes
deserts are clad;
Somebody else needs a blessing.
Refrain
Well tell the old story again and
again;
Salvation for sinners, good will unto
men,
Till Gospel songs echo from mountain to
glen;
Somebody else needs a blessing.